tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-221732582024-03-07T16:27:39.859+08:00Terokai HatiPuteri-puteri jadilah senteri.................pawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.comBlogger195125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-79478927078350535062015-07-27T18:34:00.001+08:002015-07-27T18:34:18.486+08:00pawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-85282013000052138892014-03-31T14:22:00.001+08:002014-03-31T14:22:24.324+08:00Forgive Me<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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No excuses I could offer<o:p></o:p></div>
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That brought us here<o:p></o:p></div>
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Turning points in life<o:p></o:p></div>
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As you deliver the final call<o:p></o:p></div>
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All said and done<o:p></o:p></div>
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Nothing left to dwell upon<o:p></o:p></div>
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The wrongs are all mine<o:p></o:p></div>
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Shoulder them to my grave<o:p></o:p></div>
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Never meant it to be this way<o:p></o:p></div>
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As much as it hurts you<o:p></o:p></div>
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It hurts me more<o:p></o:p></div>
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I’ll trade anything <o:p></o:p></div>
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Please forgive me<o:p></o:p></div>
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Sitting here on our last goodbye<o:p></o:p></div>
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The rain pours along my weeping heart<o:p></o:p></div>
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Trust is worked upon <o:p></o:p></div>
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And never given<o:p></o:p></div>
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pawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-63491124661659807722013-01-14T11:19:00.003+08:002013-01-14T11:19:52.777+08:00Tahun Baharu…Bayangan Tahun-Tahun Sebelumnya <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Tahun baru adalah sambungan kisah-kisah yang lalu. Ianya bukanlah permulaan baru dalam erti kata hakiki atatupun "kelahiran semula". Kita masih membawa cerita-cerita suka mahupun duka sebelumnya. Ini pun bukan bermakna kita akan berterusan bersedih biarpun banyak episod-episod luka yang ingin kita lupakan masih berpaut di ingatan. Begitulah juga sebaliknya.<br />
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Tahun lalu banyak cabaran yang dilontarkan dari kedua dua sisi zahir dan juga batin., bukan saja untuk aku dan keluarga terdekat malah juga untuk kawan kawan yang rapat denganku. Dugaaan kesihatan, kewangan, perpisahan, permusuhan dan pelbagai lagi. Semuanya kalau kita amati adalah perkara-perkara biasa selagi kita bergelar manusia selagi itulah kita berdepan dengan perkara sebegitu. Dari sudut lain, bohonglah kalau tidak ada langsung cerita-cerita yang indah berlaku seperti kelahiran ahli keluarga baru, bertemu pasangan hidup, memenangi loteri dan sebangainya. Cuma kisah-kisah gembira ini sering digerhanakan oleh perasaan sedih serta murung yang datangnya tak berjangka.<br />
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Seperi kata-kata klise, hidup seperti roda, kita akan merasakan naik dan turunnya dan yang membezakan kita adalah magnitud dan tahap penerimaan kita terhadap sesuatu perkara. Si kaya kehilangan RM100 berbeza dengan si miskin kehilangan nilai yang sama tetapi jika tahap penerimaan si miskin itu tinggi maka perbezaan itu mampu dikurangkan.<br />
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Setelah berpuluh tahun melalu tahun baharu, kali ni aku cuba memilih untuk menghadapinya secara berbeza. Saban setiap kali ditimpa kesusahan, kesempitan dan kecelakaan jalan biasa yang diambil adalah dengan membesarkan kesempitan serta kesusahan sampai tiada nampak jalan keluar. Selepas itu semua dipersalahkan termasuklah Tuhan. Pendekatan ini memang melegakan kerana merasakan ada sokongan simpati dari orang orang terdekat serta semuanya adallah takdir tuhan maka sebetulnya tuhan juga diersalahkan. Ini penyelesaian mudah dan sementara kerana tidaklah memerlukan penggunaan akal yang meluas. Kurang duit, cerita dan besarkan kesedihan kepada kawan-kawan lepas tu salahkan Tuhan. Sakit badan juga salahkan tuhan. Semua cerita sedih dan negatif adalah salah Tuhan dan mula mempersoalkan ketentuan Tuhan. Jauh sekali melihat dari aras tinggi mengapa semua terjadi. Ini memerlukan kekuatan serta ketajaman otak untuk menyelingkap rahsia sesuatu kejadian yang buruk serta yang baik. Jarang berfikir tentang terjadinya berita gembira lebih tertumpu pada cerita cerita yang sedih.<br />
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Semua mahu hidupnya senang lenang dan tenang sampai ke hujung nyawa. Itu bukan maknya tiada kecelakaan yang akan berlaku, Cuma bagaimana hendak menerima dan berhadapan dengannya dapat memisahkan ketenangan dan keresahan. Pilihannya di tangan kita dan kita berupaya melakukannya disertai dengan doa yang tidak putus-putus.<br />
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Pun bukanlah mudah seperti yang ditulis kerana yang pasti ujian-ujian kesusahan dan kesenangan akan senantiasa datang dalam keadaan yang tidak kita jangka, Hidup seperti "electronic game" selagi kita gagal melepasi aras tertentu selagi itulah kita akan ditakuk yang sama. Sesusah berjaya di sesuatu tempat pasti akan diuji dengan tempat atau keadaan yang lebih susah. Itulah kehidupan dan kita tak dapat mengubah permainannya hanya mampu menyediakan diri dan mebubah strategi bila perlu untuk bertarung. <br />
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Hidup hanya sekali dan pilihlah sebaik-baiknya. Gundah gelana atau aman dan tenang adalah pilihan kita sebenarnya dan salahkan Tuhan adalah sesuatu yang sia sia. Kalau tahun ini tahun gembira ianya adalah pilihan kita dan kiranya tahun ini terasa sempit dan sedih ianya juga pilihan hati kita samada kita sedar ataupun tidak. Biarpun tahun tahun yang lalu membayangi kita namum kita punya pilihan untuk mencorakkan tahun-tahun yang mendatang. Ini perlukan kerja yang kuat. Tiada ketenangan dan kesenangan tanpa mengorbankan sesuatu yang kita sayangi. Umpama dalam perang, haruslah tidak kita leka biarpun sesaat.<br />
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pawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-32724273928093897792012-11-21T16:02:00.000+08:002012-11-21T16:02:01.036+08:00Salut Pak Sali<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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I<br />
Pak Sali umur lima dua<br />
Bersara navy kerja swasta<br />
Rambut kelabu misai putih<br />
Senyum tawa sini sana<br />
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II<br />
Anak sulung dah bernikah<br />
Yang kecil baru tadika<br />
Beban tanggungan masih berat<br />
Namun Pak Sali bersahaja<br />
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<b>Dia telah bongkar rahsia</b><br />
<b>Penenang segala masalah</b><br />
<b>Terima telan yang mendatang</b><br />
<b>Seteruk mana lambat laun hilang</b><br />
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III<br />
Memang harta tak cecah juta<br />
Kerna itu bukan cita-citanya<br />
Hanya mahu tinggalkan sedikit jejak <br />
Mungkin udah anak-anak bertapak<br />
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IV<br />
Salut aku sama Pak Sali<br />
Berjaya kemudi hidup sebegini<br />
Tak goyah hal keduniaan<br />
Orang kecil semangat kental <br />
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pawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-16892974829361708032012-07-12T10:02:00.004+08:002012-07-26T10:49:13.055+08:00Hardworking man said....“I never dwell on the past. I get up everyday and think how I can make something better than the last thing I did.”pawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-16207548641578723092012-06-26T20:58:00.001+08:002012-06-26T20:58:00.486+08:00bulan sabit berwarna kuning<p>Siapa yang menukar mento bulan semalam ke warna kuning?</p>
<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.6</div>pawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-29801281919651880062012-06-01T10:54:00.001+08:002012-06-01T10:54:41.005+08:00sekali lagi<p>#QuitNow! Since 28 Mei 2012: <br> <br/> 3 days smoke free,<br> <br/> 62 cigarettes down,<br> <br/> RM31.0 and 06:12:00 saved!</p> <br/> <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.4</div>pawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-81460600575147471692012-05-22T22:52:00.001+08:002012-05-22T22:52:56.796+08:00debat orang orang kuat...<p>Wei....Hangpa ni dok bayag balik ka hutang masa hangpa belajaq dulu....ohh <u>maaf</u> hangpa ni golongan elitis dan bangsawan...hangpa kan semua terkecuali.....kalau ada pon mana ada orang berani hambat hangpa...</p> <br/> <p>Wei.....orang kuat hutang lebat pon takpa... </p> <br/> <p>Wei. ..hangpa ini tekan orang kecik dan halus je... hangpa ni betoi betoi takdak teloq. ..</p> <br/> <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.4</div>pawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-54738253399523934342012-05-21T20:11:00.001+08:002012-05-21T20:11:14.571+08:00seikhlas sejujur segunung harapan<p>Seharusnya apabila diuji sehebat dan segenting ini, maka haruslah semakin akrab dengan Pencipta</p> <br/> <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.4</div>pawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-47587468559010093462012-05-21T20:10:00.001+08:002012-05-21T20:10:47.406+08:00<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.4</div>pawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-6526829245197630142012-05-16T15:55:00.002+08:002012-05-16T15:55:45.118+08:00Nikmat - Pak A Samad SaidSegala yang dihasrat
tapi tak didapat
adalah nikmat
yang paling padat.
Benih Harapan
1973pawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-62083849117699418562012-05-15T14:32:00.000+08:002012-05-15T14:32:47.349+08:00Road to Recovery Part IIAlhamdulillah.....
The pain is almost gone
Now I could turn left and right with less hindrance
I could sleep well
The therapy session is now reduced
Seeing the doc again in 4 days time...,,
Syukurpawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-80518885462094429192012-04-25T14:15:00.001+08:002012-04-25T14:15:48.561+08:00Jiwa kena kuatBagaimana......pandai pandai lu lapawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-13947323562195460132012-04-14T18:01:00.001+08:002012-04-14T23:27:44.330+08:00perihal hati<p>Kita hanya mampu menyakiti orang terdekat dengan kita</p> <br/> <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.4</div>pawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-23817070592950699682012-04-13T22:01:00.001+08:002012-04-13T22:01:01.066+08:00penyentuh hati<p>Si dara nangis...si teruna nangis....secara langsung.....perlamaran ala barat</p> <br/> <p>Kalau macam ini lah perkara yang diangkat bangsaku.....memang betul takkan melayu hilang di <u>dunia</u></p> <br/> <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.4</div>pawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-53102468497136462872012-04-10T21:34:00.001+08:002012-04-10T21:34:22.982+08:00siapa yang tak peduli sebenarnya<p>Bila sekaya-kaya manusia tetiba memperjuangkan nasib semiskin-miskin manusia.....</p> <br/> <p>Aku mulai musykil......apa pulak yang hendak dikaut mereka kali ini?<br> <br/> </p> <br/> <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.4</div>pawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-49155754221927353652012-04-06T15:01:00.001+08:002012-04-06T15:01:59.642+08:00Everything is PossibleI was making a very good progress in term of recovery until one and a half hour ago. BEfore it was just a small sharp pain near the right throat area when turning right. Now, the sharp pain is attacking on the left side from the neck, shoulder to the left hand.
Hope things do not get worse than and as long as I can make it home today driving on Friday's traffic, I am thankful.
Anything and everything is possible whether you like it or not, it is beyond your or my control.pawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-61632225521624686462012-04-04T11:02:00.000+08:002012-04-04T11:04:30.667+08:00GayaPenulisan mencerminkan keperibadianpawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-57199845883506274602012-04-03T19:56:00.002+08:002012-04-04T09:16:38.032+08:00jantan tulen<p>Berjaya sembunyikan segala keperitaan demi satu kecintaan yang engkau sendiri pun tidak mengerti</p> <br /> <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.4</div>pawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-7957242825586680972012-04-03T16:08:00.001+08:002012-04-03T16:10:45.894+08:00Salahkah Takdir.....?Sesungguhnya bila ditimpa kecelakaan<br />mungkin engkau tersedar <br />dan mungkin jua kau kan terus tenggelam dan hanyut dalam kekufuran<br /><br />55-13: Maka nikmat Rab (Tuhan) kamu yang manakah yang kamu berdua (jin dan manusia) dustakan? <br />Surah 55, Surah al-Rahman (Yang Maha Pemurah)pawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-62140818794788112572012-04-03T14:48:00.002+08:002012-04-03T14:58:26.732+08:00Why Me ....Because <br />you are a sinner<br />you are a complainer<br />you are a runner<br />you are a loser<br />you are a liar<br />you are a nothing<br />....and a sinnerpawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-73301731768714280122012-04-03T11:03:00.005+08:002012-04-03T15:29:55.031+08:00Sand In My Head<em>Had the 4th visit with the doc and 9th theraphy session yesterday. Things have improved, the pain has now moved to the right side of the neck. The numbness has gone, that is good as I do not have to do the neck traction anymore. The theraphy has been reduced to once a week and the doc's visit is in a month's time. The drugs prescribed were still the same with the pain killer's dosage is reduced. The stock will last for 3 weeks. So there will be a week with no drug. Insya-Allah I will be fine. <br /><br />Rain oh Rain<br />Would you come<br />and wash away <br />all my pain<br />on my every moves<br /><br />Wind oh Wind<br />Would you blow<br />with all the might<br />all the agony<br />on my every turns<br /><br />All I want<br />All I need<br />is to be free<br />to be clear<br />from the sand in my head<br /><br />Though I am <br />restricted<br />and limited<br />the loves of you<br />has no boundaries<br /><br /><br /></em>pawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-9616150480049238402012-03-28T15:40:00.004+08:002012-03-28T16:53:35.567+08:00Road of RecoveryA good friend of mine was telling me...i'm on the road of recovery. I just agreed although there were so many other thoughts running through my brain as the the therapist was preparing the traction machine to pull my neck. <br /><br />Looking back 13 days ago, I was told that I had a slipped disc between C5/C6 and C6/C7, The MRI scan proved that although I have no idea as film looked the same to me black and white. Why cant we have the image in color so it would be clear to a not medical educated person likes me. Anyway, I trust the doctor. All I need is to start breaking away from the denial zone. All the symptoms are there numbness, pain on both the hands and legs, pain radiated from the back of neck radiating to both shoulders, restricted head movement especially to the right, difficult to sleep as no position seems to be the right one.<br /><br />So the doc prescribed me drugs to relax the muscle and eased the pain and was asked to go for phsysiotherapy which would help to strenghten the muscle. The theraphy is daily where tehy put hot towel, pad me to the machine for 20 minutes whch could actually lifted your arms by itself. THen another 12 minutes of neck traction which means it literally pull your neck with some load hoefully the disc can move back to the original position and That makes me realized how powerful our nerves are and with the right amount of electrons it could help you to move your arms , legs etc. That was the routine for 7 days doing therapy for 1 hour and resting at home<br /><br />On the second visit, I was upbeat as the pain has reduced significantly and I could turn to the right with no pain. The only complaints to the doc was I could not sleep and the numbness and pain is unberable. THe pain and numbness and the pain will take sometimes to go off. As long as the pain on the neck and shoulder has subdued then it is fine. So the doc reduced the dosage of the same drug and gave some sleeping pills and the therapy is on as usual.<br /><br />3rd visit, the pain came back. The doc was surprised, with therapy and medication after 10 days it should have been improving greatly. He was pondering for a good 2 minutes and then asked if I am stressed out or not. Normal stress I told him, work, life, family and the loss of 25% of the manhood that takes somtimes for me to comprehend. Then he was lecturing about stress. He said not to worry, worry only on small things, bigger things let God takes care of it. Hahaha, point noted doc. He prescribed me stronger drug both for day and night and could make you stone. I said good then I could go on the other side and be in touch with my subconcious mind. I am on day 2 on the new drugs, and I think it has gone from bad to worse. The pain around the neck and shoulder is getting worse. THe sleeping pill did not help. The mind is so bogged down with so many things.<br /><br />THe message from this, there are so many signals that I have ignored and I am paying the price now. If I were to seriously consider this problem a year and a half ago, most likely I will not be in this kind of pain but it is useless to look back those time that has past. What matters is now not even future.<br /><br />For you, try to decipher the signals that are radiated everyday and be clever enough to act based on the signal. God sends signals in many ways and you will learn. Signals is to help you in search of love, life, happiness, health, wealth. I will try my best to help you out so you dont repeat the mistakes that I did. Trust me, I have made many mistakes and continue to make mistakes in my road to recovery.pawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-30228822657523636112012-03-02T15:56:00.002+08:002012-03-02T15:58:17.932+08:00Khamis MalamSi warak mula melucahpawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22173258.post-2664943221806148232012-02-20T16:48:00.004+08:002012-02-20T16:59:48.336+08:00Hebat itu....menerima takdir sejujurnya<br />menunggu doa yang belum makbul<br />melihat kisah dulu tanpa penyesalan<br />ikhlas tinggal di setinggan dia antara dua banglopawaka1http://www.blogger.com/profile/07058753457248165871noreply@blogger.com0