I
Mata ini kian mahu terpejam
Semangat pula makin menjunam
Lelah nafas ku mengekorimu
Sudah dekat namun kau menyekat
II
Apa warna sebenar hatimu
Hitam merah biru ataupun kelabu
Mungkin engkau memang begitu
Dan hanya aku yang keliru
Kau butakanlah mataku
Agar tidak ku terpandang yang lain
Kau kuncikanlah mulutku
Agar ia tak mampu mendustai hati
III
Apa yang aku dambakan
Bukan setakat berahi cumbuan
Apa yang kita perlukan
Satu kemurnian dalam kecintaan
Makam cinta itu
Bawa mu ke syurga
Makam cinta ini
Bawa ku ke syurga
Friday, April 30, 2010
Monday, February 15, 2010
How Much Longer
Trapped in the ocean of loneliness
Staring through the wall of emptiness
Feels that the hand of time stood still
As it point straight to your face
Walk on the street to clear the head
It got worse with every step I take
Your smiles are at every corner of the turns
Grabbing them is like casting a night shadow
Can you tell how much longer
Before I see the sun rise in your eyes
Can you tell how much longer
Before I feel the heat of your touch
Angels came and try to conquer me
But my heart only filled with you
I'm not pleased with the shape of the moment
Hope you know that I am fighting
-Makati 0013-
Staring through the wall of emptiness
Feels that the hand of time stood still
As it point straight to your face
Walk on the street to clear the head
It got worse with every step I take
Your smiles are at every corner of the turns
Grabbing them is like casting a night shadow
Can you tell how much longer
Before I see the sun rise in your eyes
Can you tell how much longer
Before I feel the heat of your touch
Angels came and try to conquer me
But my heart only filled with you
I'm not pleased with the shape of the moment
Hope you know that I am fighting
-Makati 0013-
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
Endorfin
Apa ilmu yang kau pakai
Apa bau yang kau semai
Sampai aku mampu menguasai galaksi
Berjlan tanpa melangkah
Bicara pun tanpa lidah
Bernafas tanpa udara
Kau datang tepat masa
Pembawa selaut endorphin
Menyuntik tepat ke jantungku
Kini
Kesedihan telah melayang hilang
Kesakitan kini tiada dihirau
Ketakutan itu hanyalah semalam
Izinkan ku peluk batinmu
Bercantum kita menjadi satu
Apa bau yang kau semai
Sampai aku mampu menguasai galaksi
Berjlan tanpa melangkah
Bicara pun tanpa lidah
Bernafas tanpa udara
Kau datang tepat masa
Pembawa selaut endorphin
Menyuntik tepat ke jantungku
Kini
Kesedihan telah melayang hilang
Kesakitan kini tiada dihirau
Ketakutan itu hanyalah semalam
Izinkan ku peluk batinmu
Bercantum kita menjadi satu
Kebodohan Meraja
Kebodohan kini melata merata
Bercambah segar di pelusuk negara
Di tepi kandang, di kaki lima
Di koridor universiti serta parlimen
Tak lupa jua di jalan raya
Kebodohon ini tak terbendung lagi
Dari ucapan politik dan jua sarjana
Jalan yang dulu terang kini jadi kelam
Kerana kebodohan tersilap matikan suis
Bercakap seorang saja
Mendengar jarang sekali
Tua kecil muda besar
Diperkecil dan diperlekeh
Dibesar dan dimegah
Dengan semangat palsu
Semangat kebodohan
Bercambah segar di pelusuk negara
Di tepi kandang, di kaki lima
Di koridor universiti serta parlimen
Tak lupa jua di jalan raya
Kebodohon ini tak terbendung lagi
Dari ucapan politik dan jua sarjana
Jalan yang dulu terang kini jadi kelam
Kerana kebodohan tersilap matikan suis
Bercakap seorang saja
Mendengar jarang sekali
Tua kecil muda besar
Diperkecil dan diperlekeh
Dibesar dan dimegah
Dengan semangat palsu
Semangat kebodohan
Kopi Perang
Setiap pagi ku tunggu
Pelawaan darimu
Untuk secawan kopi perang
Pahit lidah terasa
Kerna ku tak perlu gula
Kemanisanmu cukup mengisi suasana
Bukan minum agenda utama
Luang ruang untuk bicara
Perihal burung kehilangan mata
Perihal ikan keputusan sirip
Ku tahu kau pun tak selesa
Melayan konflik huru hara
Kerna pertemuan kita sini
Telah terlambat sembilan tiupan masa
Pelawaan darimu
Untuk secawan kopi perang
Pahit lidah terasa
Kerna ku tak perlu gula
Kemanisanmu cukup mengisi suasana
Bukan minum agenda utama
Luang ruang untuk bicara
Perihal burung kehilangan mata
Perihal ikan keputusan sirip
Ku tahu kau pun tak selesa
Melayan konflik huru hara
Kerna pertemuan kita sini
Telah terlambat sembilan tiupan masa
Kerusi
Ku tulis ini cerita
Saat menunggu kau tiba
Melabuhkan pinggulmu di empuk kerusi
Kerusi terus setia
Menanti sebuah hakikat
Adakah mungkin kita setanding itu
Engkau tiba dan memilih kerusi sama
Ini semua tanda kehebatan cintanya
Jangan esok ada yang lain pula
Cuba mengalihkan kedudukan ini
Kerana aku belum bersedia
Saat menunggu kau tiba
Melabuhkan pinggulmu di empuk kerusi
Kerusi terus setia
Menanti sebuah hakikat
Adakah mungkin kita setanding itu
Engkau tiba dan memilih kerusi sama
Ini semua tanda kehebatan cintanya
Jangan esok ada yang lain pula
Cuba mengalihkan kedudukan ini
Kerana aku belum bersedia
Monday, December 28, 2009
... adalah Pam Tandas
Ujudnya kita disini
Punya tuju jua tugas
Biar kecil namun bebas
Kita sebaik ciptaan
Sering kita ditekan
Selalu juga ditarik
Sering kita dipicit
Selalu juga dipulas
Mengalir deras air membasuh
Dosa yang kita banggakan
Bersama segala kotoran
Kita terus dimaafkan
Punya tuju jua tugas
Biar kecil namun bebas
Kita sebaik ciptaan
Sering kita ditekan
Selalu juga ditarik
Sering kita dipicit
Selalu juga dipulas
Mengalir deras air membasuh
Dosa yang kita banggakan
Bersama segala kotoran
Kita terus dimaafkan
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Seni dan Lagu, Seni dan Kata:Asas Perkenalan
Aku dikenalkan kepada seni lagu dan seni kata mungkin secara tak berapa langsung oleh arwah abah aku. Dia selalu main piring hitam A.Ramlee, M Daud Kilau, Hindustan, Inggeris macam lagu Bee Gees, Air Supply dan macam macam lagi. Tak silap aku mungkin umur aku pada masa tu dalam 7 atau 8 tahun...
Bermula dari situ aku memang layan seni lagu dan seni kata yang bergabung menjadi muzik. Aku lebih tertarik kepada kata kata yang menjadi lirik daripada melodi atau seni lagu itu, Jadi aku pun menganalisis apa disebalik maksud kata-kata dalam lagu tersebut dan selalunya pada masa tu susah aku nak paham walaupun dalam bahasa melayu, kalau lagu Inggeris dan Hindustan lagi lah aku tak paham…kosa kata aku cetek. Tapi disebabkan ketidakfahaman itu lah yang menyedut aku kedalam dunia lagu dan kata secara lebih mendalam.
Anatara lirik lirik yang aku mula mula menangkap aku ialah Goodman Brothers “Berani Buat Berani Tanggung”-“”Ayam jalak si ayam kampnung, berani buat berani tanggung, berani sumpah berani mati, begitulah anak lelaki”””” bagi aku ia memang hebat sebab mengajar aku jadi hero, kalau salah mengaku , kalu betul , betullah…Muzik (Lagu dan kata kata) mengajar dan mempengaruhi aku dan buat aku rajin (sikit je lah) untuk mentelaah apa yang dia orang ni melalak dalam lagu dan apa yang dia orang cuba sampaikan. Dulu kaset atau piring hitam jarang letak senikata jadi tepaksalah dengar betul betil dan tulis balik untuk dapatkan aliran cerita dalam lagu tu……Pada masa 7-8 tahun tu aku jarang sanagat layan lagu macam Sudirman, Hail Amir, Uji Rashid dll sebab bagi akulah lirik dia orang tu biasa biasa saja,,,,sebab hati dan perasaan dan jiwa aku tak tersentuh…Mungkin jugak orang lain tersentuh,,,,jadi macam tu lah.
Brader aku beza umur sama aku 7 tahun, dia pun banyak pengaruhi aku dalam seni lagu dan seni kata. Dalam era awal 80an, dia banyak layan lagu-lagu pop barat, kalau Melayu dia layan Kembara, Sweet Charity …selalu dia pi Komtar buat dubbing kat kedai tape,,,dia pilih lagu lagu yang dia minat dan letak dalam satu tape..CD-60, CD-90, dan dia suruh orang kedai tu letak dalam Dolby. Dia buat kompilasi sendiri. Brader aku ni telinga dia memang super sensitive kepada bunyi Hi-Fi ni , aku biasa saja,,,janji boleh dengar lirik aku dah puas hati….Banyak lah aku dengar muzik dari dia, Police, Michael Jackson, Madonna, Prince, Nick Kreshaw, Howard Jones, Jones and Oates , Paul Young Big Country dan berlambak lambak lagi . Aku pun mula layan Kembara, Alleycats, Sweet Charity, Suhaimi Meor Hasan dengan lagu macam Ekspress Rakyat, Malam, Khafilah, Impian Seorang Nelayan, dan macam macam lagi la. Kata kata dalam lagu di orang ni bagi aku hebat, satu reality, sebab aku boleh masuk ke dalam dunia kata kata mereka dan setuju dengan jiwa aku. Mungkin masa tu aku budak budak dan tak reti nak jadi cintan. Artis barat yang aku layan seperti Police ”King of Pain”, Prince ”Purple Rain” – lirik dan gitar dia hebat, Tahun 84, brader aku pindah ke Kl sambung belajar...Jadi dari situ aku dah tak de punca nak dengar muzik, layan la aku radio RTM masa tu berselang seli dengan siaran langsung badminton dan bolasepak.
Masuk sekolah menengah masa tu rock Melayu tengah nak pickup , Battle of the Band pun turun kat Penang, ada Ella and the Boys, Search , Wings, SYJ, dll...Tapi aku tak berapa nak layan sangat sebab lirik lirik dalam tu macam satu arah je...cintan, tak puas hati. Aku pun berkenalan la sama memaber baik aku Zaff aka Kuda. Aku pun tak berapa nak ingat siapa yang pengaruh siapa, tapi hasil perkenalan dan persahabatan tu, aku diperkenalkan kepada Sodom, Kreator, Slayer, Sepultura, Morbid Angels, Death, Ramones, Misfits dan berpuluh puluh band Death/Black/Grindcore/Hardcore/Punk dan lain lain lagi. Walaupun haram aku tak tahu apa yang dia orang ni lalakkan tapi jiwa aku tenteram heheh walaupun lagu dia dia macam nak pecah gegendang dan nak luruh jantung...nungkin tajuk tajuk lagu dia menangkap aku...Hang the Pope-Nuclear Assault, Reign of Terror-Slayer dan lain lain lagi ....
Ini semua menjadi asas perkenalan Seni Kata dan Seni Lagu. Nanti aku cerita zaman sekolah mengah aku, apa yang telah aku sedut dari segi muzik dan kata-kata ...
” I'm Marked And Wounded, The Decaying Of My Thoughts
The Rotten Smell On My Skin
The Cold Body, Thrown And Forgotten
I Can See Things, But I'm Blinded To The World . . “”
Bermula dari situ aku memang layan seni lagu dan seni kata yang bergabung menjadi muzik. Aku lebih tertarik kepada kata kata yang menjadi lirik daripada melodi atau seni lagu itu, Jadi aku pun menganalisis apa disebalik maksud kata-kata dalam lagu tersebut dan selalunya pada masa tu susah aku nak paham walaupun dalam bahasa melayu, kalau lagu Inggeris dan Hindustan lagi lah aku tak paham…kosa kata aku cetek. Tapi disebabkan ketidakfahaman itu lah yang menyedut aku kedalam dunia lagu dan kata secara lebih mendalam.
Anatara lirik lirik yang aku mula mula menangkap aku ialah Goodman Brothers “Berani Buat Berani Tanggung”-“”Ayam jalak si ayam kampnung, berani buat berani tanggung, berani sumpah berani mati, begitulah anak lelaki”””” bagi aku ia memang hebat sebab mengajar aku jadi hero, kalau salah mengaku , kalu betul , betullah…Muzik (Lagu dan kata kata) mengajar dan mempengaruhi aku dan buat aku rajin (sikit je lah) untuk mentelaah apa yang dia orang ni melalak dalam lagu dan apa yang dia orang cuba sampaikan. Dulu kaset atau piring hitam jarang letak senikata jadi tepaksalah dengar betul betil dan tulis balik untuk dapatkan aliran cerita dalam lagu tu……Pada masa 7-8 tahun tu aku jarang sanagat layan lagu macam Sudirman, Hail Amir, Uji Rashid dll sebab bagi akulah lirik dia orang tu biasa biasa saja,,,,sebab hati dan perasaan dan jiwa aku tak tersentuh…Mungkin jugak orang lain tersentuh,,,,jadi macam tu lah.
Brader aku beza umur sama aku 7 tahun, dia pun banyak pengaruhi aku dalam seni lagu dan seni kata. Dalam era awal 80an, dia banyak layan lagu-lagu pop barat, kalau Melayu dia layan Kembara, Sweet Charity …selalu dia pi Komtar buat dubbing kat kedai tape,,,dia pilih lagu lagu yang dia minat dan letak dalam satu tape..CD-60, CD-90, dan dia suruh orang kedai tu letak dalam Dolby. Dia buat kompilasi sendiri. Brader aku ni telinga dia memang super sensitive kepada bunyi Hi-Fi ni , aku biasa saja,,,janji boleh dengar lirik aku dah puas hati….Banyak lah aku dengar muzik dari dia, Police, Michael Jackson, Madonna, Prince, Nick Kreshaw, Howard Jones, Jones and Oates , Paul Young Big Country dan berlambak lambak lagi . Aku pun mula layan Kembara, Alleycats, Sweet Charity, Suhaimi Meor Hasan dengan lagu macam Ekspress Rakyat, Malam, Khafilah, Impian Seorang Nelayan, dan macam macam lagi la. Kata kata dalam lagu di orang ni bagi aku hebat, satu reality, sebab aku boleh masuk ke dalam dunia kata kata mereka dan setuju dengan jiwa aku. Mungkin masa tu aku budak budak dan tak reti nak jadi cintan. Artis barat yang aku layan seperti Police ”King of Pain”, Prince ”Purple Rain” – lirik dan gitar dia hebat, Tahun 84, brader aku pindah ke Kl sambung belajar...Jadi dari situ aku dah tak de punca nak dengar muzik, layan la aku radio RTM masa tu berselang seli dengan siaran langsung badminton dan bolasepak.
Masuk sekolah menengah masa tu rock Melayu tengah nak pickup , Battle of the Band pun turun kat Penang, ada Ella and the Boys, Search , Wings, SYJ, dll...Tapi aku tak berapa nak layan sangat sebab lirik lirik dalam tu macam satu arah je...cintan, tak puas hati. Aku pun berkenalan la sama memaber baik aku Zaff aka Kuda. Aku pun tak berapa nak ingat siapa yang pengaruh siapa, tapi hasil perkenalan dan persahabatan tu, aku diperkenalkan kepada Sodom, Kreator, Slayer, Sepultura, Morbid Angels, Death, Ramones, Misfits dan berpuluh puluh band Death/Black/Grindcore/Hardcore/Punk dan lain lain lagi. Walaupun haram aku tak tahu apa yang dia orang ni lalakkan tapi jiwa aku tenteram heheh walaupun lagu dia dia macam nak pecah gegendang dan nak luruh jantung...nungkin tajuk tajuk lagu dia menangkap aku...Hang the Pope-Nuclear Assault, Reign of Terror-Slayer dan lain lain lagi ....
Ini semua menjadi asas perkenalan Seni Kata dan Seni Lagu. Nanti aku cerita zaman sekolah mengah aku, apa yang telah aku sedut dari segi muzik dan kata-kata ...
” I'm Marked And Wounded, The Decaying Of My Thoughts
The Rotten Smell On My Skin
The Cold Body, Thrown And Forgotten
I Can See Things, But I'm Blinded To The World . . “”
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Susah Susah Senang
Susah susah senang
Senang senang susah
Kitar hidupmu
Sauh dah di angkat
Layar pun tertebar
Kembara bermula
Muncul ribut kalut
Datang ombak rancak
Memberontak
Cuba duduk diam
Cuba cuba tenang
Tujuan tetap sama
Haluan kan berubah
Namun kau tetap gagah
Dalam susah senang
Dalam senang susah
Senang senang susah
Kitar hidupmu
Sauh dah di angkat
Layar pun tertebar
Kembara bermula
Muncul ribut kalut
Datang ombak rancak
Memberontak
Cuba duduk diam
Cuba cuba tenang
Tujuan tetap sama
Haluan kan berubah
Namun kau tetap gagah
Dalam susah senang
Dalam senang susah
Friday, October 16, 2009
Everybody Hurts by REM
When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
When youre sure youve had enough of this life, well hang on.
Dont let yourself go, everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes.
Sometimes everything is wrong. now its time to sing along.
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go, (hold on)
When you think youve had too much of this life, well hang on.
Everybody hurts. take comfort in your friends.
Everybody hurts. dont throw your hand. oh, no. dont throw your hand.
If you feel like youre alone, no, no, no, you are not alone
If youre on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
When you think youve had too much of this life to hang on.
Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
Everybody cries. and everybody hurts sometimes.
And everybody hurts sometimes. so, hold on, hold on.
Hold on, hold on. hold on, hold on. hold on, hold on. (repeat & fade)
(everybody hurts. you are not alone.)
When youre sure youve had enough of this life, well hang on.
Dont let yourself go, everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes.
Sometimes everything is wrong. now its time to sing along.
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go, (hold on)
When you think youve had too much of this life, well hang on.
Everybody hurts. take comfort in your friends.
Everybody hurts. dont throw your hand. oh, no. dont throw your hand.
If you feel like youre alone, no, no, no, you are not alone
If youre on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
When you think youve had too much of this life to hang on.
Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
Everybody cries. and everybody hurts sometimes.
And everybody hurts sometimes. so, hold on, hold on.
Hold on, hold on. hold on, hold on. hold on, hold on. (repeat & fade)
(everybody hurts. you are not alone.)
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Romeo and Juliet by Dire Straits
NARRATOR:
A love-struck Romeo sings the streets a serenade
Laying everybody low with a love song that he made.
Finds a streetlight, steps out of the shade
Says something like, "You and me babe, how about it?"
Juliet says, "Hey, it's Romeo, you nearly gave me a heart attack!"
He's underneath the window, she's singing, "Hey la, my boyfriend's back.
You shouldn't come around here singing up to people like that...
Anyway, what you gonna do about it?"
ROMEO:
Juliet, the dice was loaded from the start
And I bet when you exploded into my heart
And I forget I forget the movie song.
When you gonna realize it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?
Come up on different streets, they're both the streets of shame.
Both dirty, both mean, yes, in the dream it was just the same
And I dreamed your dream for you and now your dream is real.
How can you look at me as if I was just another one of your deals?
Well you can fall for chains of silver,
You can fall for chains of gold,
You can fall for pretty strangers
And the promises they hold.
You promised me everything, you promised me thick and thin, yeah!
Now you just say, "Oh Romeo? Yeah, you know I used to have a scene with him".
Juliet, when we made love, you used to cry.
You said, "I love you like the stars above, I'll love you 'til I die".
There's a place for us, you know the movie song.
When you gonna realize it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?
I can't do the talk, like the talk on TV
And I can't do a love song, like the way it's meant to be.
I can't do everything, but I'll do anything for you.
I can't do anything, 'cept be in love with you!
And all I do is miss you and the way we used to be.
All I do is keep the beat... and bad company.
Now all I do is kiss you through the bars of a rhyme,
Juliet, I'd do the stars with you any time!
Juliet, when we made love you used to cry.
You said, "I love you like the stars above, I'll love you 'til I die".
There's a place for us, you know the movie song.
When you gonna realize it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?
NARRATOR:
And a love-struck Romeo sings a street-suss serenade
Laying everybody low with a lovesong that he made
Finds a convenient streetlight, steps out of the shade
He says something like, "You and me babe, how about it?"
ROMEO:
You and me babe, how about it?
A love-struck Romeo sings the streets a serenade
Laying everybody low with a love song that he made.
Finds a streetlight, steps out of the shade
Says something like, "You and me babe, how about it?"
Juliet says, "Hey, it's Romeo, you nearly gave me a heart attack!"
He's underneath the window, she's singing, "Hey la, my boyfriend's back.
You shouldn't come around here singing up to people like that...
Anyway, what you gonna do about it?"
ROMEO:
Juliet, the dice was loaded from the start
And I bet when you exploded into my heart
And I forget I forget the movie song.
When you gonna realize it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?
Come up on different streets, they're both the streets of shame.
Both dirty, both mean, yes, in the dream it was just the same
And I dreamed your dream for you and now your dream is real.
How can you look at me as if I was just another one of your deals?
Well you can fall for chains of silver,
You can fall for chains of gold,
You can fall for pretty strangers
And the promises they hold.
You promised me everything, you promised me thick and thin, yeah!
Now you just say, "Oh Romeo? Yeah, you know I used to have a scene with him".
Juliet, when we made love, you used to cry.
You said, "I love you like the stars above, I'll love you 'til I die".
There's a place for us, you know the movie song.
When you gonna realize it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?
I can't do the talk, like the talk on TV
And I can't do a love song, like the way it's meant to be.
I can't do everything, but I'll do anything for you.
I can't do anything, 'cept be in love with you!
And all I do is miss you and the way we used to be.
All I do is keep the beat... and bad company.
Now all I do is kiss you through the bars of a rhyme,
Juliet, I'd do the stars with you any time!
Juliet, when we made love you used to cry.
You said, "I love you like the stars above, I'll love you 'til I die".
There's a place for us, you know the movie song.
When you gonna realize it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?
NARRATOR:
And a love-struck Romeo sings a street-suss serenade
Laying everybody low with a lovesong that he made
Finds a convenient streetlight, steps out of the shade
He says something like, "You and me babe, how about it?"
ROMEO:
You and me babe, how about it?
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
King of Pain By The Police
There's a little black spot on the sun today
That's my soul up there.
It's the same old thing as yesterday
That's my soul up there.
There's a black hat caught in a high tree top
That's my soul up there.
There's a flag pole rag and the wind won't stop
That's my soul up there.
I have stood here before in the pouring rain
With the world turning circles running 'round my brain.
I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign,
But it's my destiny to be the king of pain...
There's a fossil that's trapped in a high cliff wall
There's a dead salmon frozen in a waterfall
There's a blue whale beached by a springtime's ebb
There's a butterfly trapped in a spider's web
There's a king on a throne with his eyes torn out
There's a blind man looking for a shadow of doubt
There's a rich man sleeping on a golden bed
There's a skeleton choking on a crust of bread
There's a red fox torn by a huntsman's pack
There's a black-winged gull with a broken back
There's a little black spot on the sun today.
It's the same old thing as yesterday,
That's my soul up there.......................
I have stood here before in the pouring rain
With the world turning circles running 'round my brain.
I guess I always thought you could end this reign,
But it's my destiny to be the king of pain.............
I'll always be king of pain............................
That's my soul up there.
It's the same old thing as yesterday
That's my soul up there.
There's a black hat caught in a high tree top
That's my soul up there.
There's a flag pole rag and the wind won't stop
That's my soul up there.
I have stood here before in the pouring rain
With the world turning circles running 'round my brain.
I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign,
But it's my destiny to be the king of pain...
There's a fossil that's trapped in a high cliff wall
There's a dead salmon frozen in a waterfall
There's a blue whale beached by a springtime's ebb
There's a butterfly trapped in a spider's web
There's a king on a throne with his eyes torn out
There's a blind man looking for a shadow of doubt
There's a rich man sleeping on a golden bed
There's a skeleton choking on a crust of bread
There's a red fox torn by a huntsman's pack
There's a black-winged gull with a broken back
There's a little black spot on the sun today.
It's the same old thing as yesterday,
That's my soul up there.......................
I have stood here before in the pouring rain
With the world turning circles running 'round my brain.
I guess I always thought you could end this reign,
But it's my destiny to be the king of pain.............
I'll always be king of pain............................
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
It's Not My Time by 3 Doors Down
Looking back at the beginning of this
And how life was
Just you and me and love and all of our friends
Living life like an ocean
Now the currents slowly pulling me down
It's getting harder to breath
It won't be too long and I'll be going under
Can you save me from this
It's not my time,
I'm not going
There's a fear in me
It's not showing
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
Oh, I won't go
I look ahead to all the plans that we made
And the dreams that we had
I'm in a world that tries to take them away
Oh, but I'm taking them back
All this time I've just been to blind to understand
What should matter to me
My friend, this life we live
Is not what we have, it's what we believe
It's not my time
I'm not going
There's a fear in me
It's not showing
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
Oh, It's not my time
I'm not going
There's a fear in me
Now I know that
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
Oh, I won't go
I won't go
It might be more than you believe
It might be something you can't see
It's not my time
I'm not going
There's a fear in me
It's not showing
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
It's not my time
I'm not going
There's a will in me
Now it's gonna show
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
I won't go
There might be more than you believe
There might be more than you can see
It's not my time
I'm not going
There's a fear in me
It's not showing
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
It's not my time
I'm not going
There's a will in me
Now I know it
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
I won't go
I won't go!
No I wooooon't gooooo down!
And how life was
Just you and me and love and all of our friends
Living life like an ocean
Now the currents slowly pulling me down
It's getting harder to breath
It won't be too long and I'll be going under
Can you save me from this
It's not my time,
I'm not going
There's a fear in me
It's not showing
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
Oh, I won't go
I look ahead to all the plans that we made
And the dreams that we had
I'm in a world that tries to take them away
Oh, but I'm taking them back
All this time I've just been to blind to understand
What should matter to me
My friend, this life we live
Is not what we have, it's what we believe
It's not my time
I'm not going
There's a fear in me
It's not showing
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
Oh, It's not my time
I'm not going
There's a fear in me
Now I know that
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
Oh, I won't go
I won't go
It might be more than you believe
It might be something you can't see
It's not my time
I'm not going
There's a fear in me
It's not showing
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
It's not my time
I'm not going
There's a will in me
Now it's gonna show
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
I won't go
There might be more than you believe
There might be more than you can see
It's not my time
I'm not going
There's a fear in me
It's not showing
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
It's not my time
I'm not going
There's a will in me
Now I know it
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
I won't go
I won't go!
No I wooooon't gooooo down!
Wednesday, October 07, 2009
Better Man by Pearl Jam
Waitin', watchin' the clock, it's four o'clock, it's got to stop
Tell him, take no more, she practices her speech
As he opens the door, she rolls over...
Pretends to sleep as he looks her over
She lies and says she's in love with him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
Can't find a better man (2x)
Ohh...
Talkin' to herself, there's no one else who needs to know...
She tells herself, oh...
Memories back when she was bold and strong
And waiting for the world to come along...
Swears she knew it, now she swears he's gone
She lies and says she's in love with him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
She lies and says she still loves him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
Can't find a better man
Yeah...
She loved him, yeah...she don't want to leave this way
She needs him, yeah...that's why she'll be back again
Can't find a better man
Can't find a better...man...
Ohh...ohh...
Uh huh...
Ohh...
Tell him, take no more, she practices her speech
As he opens the door, she rolls over...
Pretends to sleep as he looks her over
She lies and says she's in love with him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
Can't find a better man (2x)
Ohh...
Talkin' to herself, there's no one else who needs to know...
She tells herself, oh...
Memories back when she was bold and strong
And waiting for the world to come along...
Swears she knew it, now she swears he's gone
She lies and says she's in love with him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
She lies and says she still loves him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
Can't find a better man
Yeah...
She loved him, yeah...she don't want to leave this way
She needs him, yeah...that's why she'll be back again
Can't find a better man
Can't find a better...man...
Ohh...ohh...
Uh huh...
Ohh...
Nothingman - Pearl Jam
Nothingman by Pearl Jam
once divided...nothing left to subtract...
some words when spoken...can't be taken back...
walks on his own...with thoughts he can't help thinking...
future's above...but in the past he's slow and sinking...
caught a bolt 'a lightnin'...cursed the day he let it go...
nothingman...
nothingman...
isn't it something?
nothingman...
she once believed...in every story he had to tell...
one day she stiffened...took the other side...
empty stares...from each corner of a shared prison cell...
one just escapes...one's left inside the well...
and he who forgets...will be destined to remember...
nothingman...
nothingman...
isn't it something?
nothingman...
oh, she don't want him...
oh, she won't feed him...after he's flown away...
oh, into the sun...ah, into the sun...
burn...burn...
nothingman...
nothingman...
isn't it something?
nothingman...
nothingman...
coulda' been something...
nothingman...
oh...ohh...ohh...
once divided...nothing left to subtract...
some words when spoken...can't be taken back...
walks on his own...with thoughts he can't help thinking...
future's above...but in the past he's slow and sinking...
caught a bolt 'a lightnin'...cursed the day he let it go...
nothingman...
nothingman...
isn't it something?
nothingman...
she once believed...in every story he had to tell...
one day she stiffened...took the other side...
empty stares...from each corner of a shared prison cell...
one just escapes...one's left inside the well...
and he who forgets...will be destined to remember...
nothingman...
nothingman...
isn't it something?
nothingman...
oh, she don't want him...
oh, she won't feed him...after he's flown away...
oh, into the sun...ah, into the sun...
burn...burn...
nothingman...
nothingman...
isn't it something?
nothingman...
nothingman...
coulda' been something...
nothingman...
oh...ohh...ohh...
Friday, August 14, 2009
Al-Fatihah untuk Ustaz Asri
Al-Fatihah untuk Ustaz Asri.
Takziah untuk seluruh kaum keluarganya semoga dibekalkan kekuatan menjalani kehilangan ini.
Sempat bertemu dengan ustaz sekali.
Teringat pada arwah abah yang telah pulang 10 hari sebelum Ramadhan 2007.
Al-Fatihah untuk arwah abah dan arwah emak.
Al-Fatihah
Takziah untuk seluruh kaum keluarganya semoga dibekalkan kekuatan menjalani kehilangan ini.
Sempat bertemu dengan ustaz sekali.
Teringat pada arwah abah yang telah pulang 10 hari sebelum Ramadhan 2007.
Al-Fatihah untuk arwah abah dan arwah emak.
Al-Fatihah
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Battered and Bruised
Still in the ring with the unknowns.
Tirelessly fighting.
Battered and Bruised ....A Definite Yes.
But ...will not succumb to their lowest level.
Children, I salute you for your immense energy and courage. Soldier on as nothing is forever. We will be out of this to be wiser, greater, stronger caliphs on the earth.
Musuh yang nyata cuma tak kelihatan namun berkeliaran.
Yang haq pasti timbul, yang batil tentu tenggelam
Tirelessly fighting.
Battered and Bruised ....A Definite Yes.
But ...will not succumb to their lowest level.
Children, I salute you for your immense energy and courage. Soldier on as nothing is forever. We will be out of this to be wiser, greater, stronger caliphs on the earth.
Musuh yang nyata cuma tak kelihatan namun berkeliaran.
Yang haq pasti timbul, yang batil tentu tenggelam
Friday, July 03, 2009
Penyesalan Yang Memang Tiada Berguna
Aku imbau kembali perjalanan aku sebagai manusia di muka bumi ini. Tiada apa sangat yang membanggakan. Jalan aku biasa saja , jaga pun biasa, tidur pun biasa. Kecil pergi sekolah, remaja sekolah tinggi, dewasa kerja, kahwin, anak pinak.
Mungkin aku takut dengan kehidupan ini. Ya sebenarnya aku takut, bebanan yang aku rasa cukup berat. Nak patah bahu aku pikul, nak pecah kepala otak aku pikir. Selalunya aku dalam keadaan terdesak, dipaksa membuat keputusan secara pantas tanpa pikiran yang panjang. Ada juga aku aku ada peluang buat keputusan tanpa dipaksa, tapi selalunya aku ambil jalan yang salah. Jadi samada aku dipaksa buat pilihan secara cepat atau pilihan yang dibei tempoh pikir yang lama aku tak dapat buat keputusan yang betul. Itulah ilmu kehidupan aku rendah amat rendah. Aku amat mengkagumi rakan-rakan, sahabat-sahabat dan saudara mara aku yang mana ilmu hidup mereka tinggi, jarang tertipu, selalu dapat mengawal keadaan tak seperti aku yang dikawal keadaan. Aku ni selalu terjerumus dalam keadaan yang tidak langsung memihak pada ku sebab aku gagal mengawal kawalan keadaan. Sama macam bernafas tanpa sedari yang kita sedang bernafas. Main jalan saja.
Banyak benda yang aku cuba sedaya untuk mengawal untuk merubah hidup ini, untuk menaikkan ilmu kehidupan aku namun aku gagal. Aku masih lagi di tempat mana aku bermula dan aku rasa terbelakang sikit. AKu bukan setakat tak bergerak namun aku macam dah mengundur ke belakang. Puncanya bagi aku yang kurang ilmu kehidupan ialah bnayak keputusan yang aku buat 20 tahun dulu yang tak kena dan tak betul langsung dan sekarang ini aku membayar harga pembalasan
Sesal memang aku sesal dan memang satu sen pun tiada guna. Bnayak yang aku hilang duit ringgit, penat lelah dan macam macam lagi sepanjang 20 tahun ini. Yang paling aku takut aku rasa aku semakin kehilangan diri aku ini. Aku semakin jadi lemah diri, hilang keyakinan diri, takut nak berjalan, berdiri, berjaga, tidur. Namun aku tak boleh nak tipu diri aku ...memang aku menyesal atas kebanyakkan benda dan keputusan yang aku buat semuanya bodoh , aku saja yang nampak macam pandai...berlagak macam pandai tapi sebenarnya dungu macam lembu. Kasihan anak bini aku terpaksa menanggung derita atas kebodohan aku.
Aku mencuba sekali lagi untuk betulkan keadaan harapnya aku takkan menyesal lagi bila aku imbau kembali hidup aku 20 tahun akan datang...Itupun kalau masih ada umur aku.
Mungkin aku takut dengan kehidupan ini. Ya sebenarnya aku takut, bebanan yang aku rasa cukup berat. Nak patah bahu aku pikul, nak pecah kepala otak aku pikir. Selalunya aku dalam keadaan terdesak, dipaksa membuat keputusan secara pantas tanpa pikiran yang panjang. Ada juga aku aku ada peluang buat keputusan tanpa dipaksa, tapi selalunya aku ambil jalan yang salah. Jadi samada aku dipaksa buat pilihan secara cepat atau pilihan yang dibei tempoh pikir yang lama aku tak dapat buat keputusan yang betul. Itulah ilmu kehidupan aku rendah amat rendah. Aku amat mengkagumi rakan-rakan, sahabat-sahabat dan saudara mara aku yang mana ilmu hidup mereka tinggi, jarang tertipu, selalu dapat mengawal keadaan tak seperti aku yang dikawal keadaan. Aku ni selalu terjerumus dalam keadaan yang tidak langsung memihak pada ku sebab aku gagal mengawal kawalan keadaan. Sama macam bernafas tanpa sedari yang kita sedang bernafas. Main jalan saja.
Banyak benda yang aku cuba sedaya untuk mengawal untuk merubah hidup ini, untuk menaikkan ilmu kehidupan aku namun aku gagal. Aku masih lagi di tempat mana aku bermula dan aku rasa terbelakang sikit. AKu bukan setakat tak bergerak namun aku macam dah mengundur ke belakang. Puncanya bagi aku yang kurang ilmu kehidupan ialah bnayak keputusan yang aku buat 20 tahun dulu yang tak kena dan tak betul langsung dan sekarang ini aku membayar harga pembalasan
Sesal memang aku sesal dan memang satu sen pun tiada guna. Bnayak yang aku hilang duit ringgit, penat lelah dan macam macam lagi sepanjang 20 tahun ini. Yang paling aku takut aku rasa aku semakin kehilangan diri aku ini. Aku semakin jadi lemah diri, hilang keyakinan diri, takut nak berjalan, berdiri, berjaga, tidur. Namun aku tak boleh nak tipu diri aku ...memang aku menyesal atas kebanyakkan benda dan keputusan yang aku buat semuanya bodoh , aku saja yang nampak macam pandai...berlagak macam pandai tapi sebenarnya dungu macam lembu. Kasihan anak bini aku terpaksa menanggung derita atas kebodohan aku.
Aku mencuba sekali lagi untuk betulkan keadaan harapnya aku takkan menyesal lagi bila aku imbau kembali hidup aku 20 tahun akan datang...Itupun kalau masih ada umur aku.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
No More Mr Nice Guy (copied from Megadeth)
One of the things that I can't stand or tolerate is those who break promises. These fuckers just go about their normal daily as if nothing was wrong and keep on doing the same shits again and again. I believe they do that because they think that their 1 minute is more precious than our 1 hour.
If you cant make it just let the other parties know so he can just fucked off and not wait for you for 3-4 hours. No matter how big your position are in the society you have to keep to your words as much as possible. Being a well known figure does not give you a license to do as you please. Dont have a fucking attitude that I am important, if you want to meet me then you have to wait although the appointment has been met. What a load of crap you have in your brain if you have one.
Sometimes, I do wonder how the fuck this people do indeed become successful in their life. Maybe they only do these kind of shits to small fly. Because small fly do not have the capacity to influence in the hierarchical ladder in this the fucked up society.
If you are nice to people, you will be fucked left and right. You will be abused and used to their advantage. What do you get in return? Few days of sleepless night, anguish in your chest and in the end you vent your frustration to your loved ones be it your partners, kids and even to your cats, dogs.
"NO MORE MR.FUCKING NICE GUY"
If you cant make it just let the other parties know so he can just fucked off and not wait for you for 3-4 hours. No matter how big your position are in the society you have to keep to your words as much as possible. Being a well known figure does not give you a license to do as you please. Dont have a fucking attitude that I am important, if you want to meet me then you have to wait although the appointment has been met. What a load of crap you have in your brain if you have one.
Sometimes, I do wonder how the fuck this people do indeed become successful in their life. Maybe they only do these kind of shits to small fly. Because small fly do not have the capacity to influence in the hierarchical ladder in this the fucked up society.
If you are nice to people, you will be fucked left and right. You will be abused and used to their advantage. What do you get in return? Few days of sleepless night, anguish in your chest and in the end you vent your frustration to your loved ones be it your partners, kids and even to your cats, dogs.
"NO MORE MR.FUCKING NICE GUY"
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Malam Ini
Ini malam aku akan jumpa Brader Power lagi.
Malam ini hendak tunjukkan hasil kerja lagi.
Semakin kerap aku jumpa dia semakin kurang rasa keterujaannnya.
Entah aku pun tak tahu pasal apa.
Mungkin malam ini malam terakhir untuk bertemu dengan dia.
Mungkin malam ini aku akan padamkan sgala angan-angan aku.
Mungkin malam ini membuka selaut harapan.
Mungkin malam ini sakit kepala aku hilang.
Mungkin malam ini malam terakhir aku bernafas.
Aku mohon ampun dan maaf pada diriku sendiri kerana telah hidup dalam pendustaan.
Malam ini, aku pastikan ada jawabnya.
Malam ini hendak tunjukkan hasil kerja lagi.
Semakin kerap aku jumpa dia semakin kurang rasa keterujaannnya.
Entah aku pun tak tahu pasal apa.
Mungkin malam ini malam terakhir untuk bertemu dengan dia.
Mungkin malam ini aku akan padamkan sgala angan-angan aku.
Mungkin malam ini membuka selaut harapan.
Mungkin malam ini sakit kepala aku hilang.
Mungkin malam ini malam terakhir aku bernafas.
Aku mohon ampun dan maaf pada diriku sendiri kerana telah hidup dalam pendustaan.
Malam ini, aku pastikan ada jawabnya.
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